2:35 am rant / by Jessica Peterson

I have been thinking about passion for the past few days, it started yesterday when I was discussing the Bill Cunningham documentary with some friends.  If you have seen the movie you will understand how passionate the guy is about his work, he is a fashion street photographer in New York who literally eats, drinks and breaths his work, I mean the guys entire home is covered floor to ceiling with filing cabinets full of film.  He is extremely passionate about what he does, not just passionate but obsessive.  When I watched the film a while back I remember being jealous that he had so much devotion to one thing and just did it all the time, day and night.  I have been thinking about the things i am passionate about... if it is even passion, if I know what passion is.  I sat down and wrote a list of all the things that I feel like I might be passionate about, many of them are temporary, like my Mad Men obsession and having the biggest girl crush on Christina Hendricks and the 1960's.  I even sent a text to some friends that know me best and asked them what they thought I might be passionate about, I got mostly texts back about diet coke, dirty jokes (i love my friends) and a lot of small, simple things...
I have come to realize I may never obsess over one thing to the point of insanity (although it seems so romantic) but I DO feel passion for many things all the time... I feel joy over daily experiences, the other night I rode the bus home late and it started to rain, when I got off the bus it was raining so hard I was completely drenched in seconds, I was listening to Laura Marling on my iphone and I ran home with the biggest smile, I didn't avoid the puddles and I didn't care how filthy the water was.  I loved that moment and I will never forget the way it felt to be running through the streets of New York by myself in the middle of warm rainstorm.

-art that I want to create
-finding brilliant colors in obscure places
-food... (that is an obvious one, I wake up thinking about what I will be eating that day)
-my family and watching my brother's children grow
-storms, watching them and being in them
-Tetris, I dream in Tetris all the time, I could play for ever
-pens, writing, drawing
-sculptures of hands
-small things, anything miniaturized makes me giddy inside
-photography... this one so many times over
-finding humor in unexpected times and places
-music and how it makes the most boring experiences unique


I am done.

oh, here is something I look forward too...
Someone to be passionate about...

I sneak took this after my friend decorated a door for Valentine's Day...
I LOVE this crap.